我的动力

我的动力在哪里？？

我需要！！！！！！！！！！

习惯

习惯了，真的很难改~
因为那就好像一种安全感，缺少了好像身体少了块肉一样痛……

很多事情，我习惯了。
在我努力忘记的时候，“习惯的事”又再次地出现，我真的很不好受……
知道，那需要多大勇气去忘记吗？
有些习惯会在我的生活圈中慢慢消失，可是当我想起时，我还是会觉得很奇怪。

习惯了和这群人喝茶，当想找回的时候各有各的忙，难在一起~
这个时候又会出现另一个生活圈，不过感觉就是不一样……没有那份亲切感~
习惯了有些人常发来的信息，一段日子突然消失了……
想起的时候会想，是不是他也忘了我，还是因为那时候他太无聊，才会毫无间断的找我，被利用了吗？哈哈~~
习惯了早上有人对我说早安，可是因为工作每天早上早安变成我对别人说。
还真怀念阿~有时候一早起身多希望一看电话就有人sms跟我说早安~哈哈~~（想太多咯）
习惯了早上有人陪着吃早餐，说说话开开玩笑~
因为大家都长大了，这种习惯也越来越少机会……

我讨厌送别，因为送别的时候就代表我又要从新适应没有这些习惯的日子。
这些习惯，关系到了我的朋友，关系到了我的家人~~
我真的很怀念~~突然突然很想念你们！！！

朋友都有各自的梦要飞……可是就有种很奇怪的感觉，好像少了什么~
我真的要学会适应吧~~

oh no~~

i really really stress on it~ n i found tat no one else is consider my training, becos they jus ask about yk. (i noe u will cit, if u come n take a look, pls dun mind wat i type here, jus let me release all my feeling, sry) i really wan to do my best ald, but sometimes i really stress until dun noe wat can i do~ i care about others feeling n wat they c about me.hiaz... i really jus can say hiaz.....

i dun noe which day i kena pengsan, becos i really feel bad in tis kinder, tat wat i din say out loud~ i noe i nid to face it, becos tis the way i choose, i will do my best in the day i still can control my emoction. i dun noe tat wat will i do if 1 day i out of control.... i will feel so sry about tat, but i think the day wont be come. i will kip everything in my heart after the training...

i wish can faster go off about tis training~

exam period

hiaz.... i really so sad of my exam, y i so unlucky n so blur as well!!!!
y everything i write the correct ans thn i wan to recorrect into wrong ans!!!!
My MARK!!!!! i waste more then 10 mark on my own mistake, i kena shout out loud ald!!!!!

YYYYY!!!! YYY i din haf the luck of exam ?? YY i oways like tat!!!!!!!! how sttupid am i~

the last exam i dun wan to touble check my ans ald!!! it kill my mark badly!!!!!!!

After exam i finish my diploma education and going to practicum in aug i hope can go smooth on it~ i wan to graduate!!!

N my FUTURE is how?? i still dun noe, everything going not smooth now.... y haf so many thing let me to consider, ARGH!!!!!!!

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So fast 1 year ald, last year i do a silly birthday e-card for him and tis year i will put effort in my exam jus wish him only~ hope he has the best 21 birthday!

is single but not available

today i having study group wif my fren and suddenly she ask me wat requires to ur bf, i dun noe how to answer her. and i ask her bc n she gif me a vry simple answer, she said she want her bf take gd k to her, n when he take gd k to her n means tat he oso will take good k to the family. actually in mind i haf many requires in before but now i really dun noe~

and the say y i din accept the guys who take gd care to me, n they think tat feeling can be train in the future. and they say me, u din accpent becos u are single but not available. i noe wat they mean, but is really like tat?? i really can say yk vry noe me much becos wat i din tell her but she oso can feel it~ yaya, maybe is like tat but i dun noe~

how stupid am i

jus realise that how poor of my communication!!
how stupid of my logical~ hiaz... i am so sad...
i really hope everything is going smooth, and will done well in my practicum!!!
i dun wish anything of tis kind of happen happen again~~
i will let her noe that how much i can effort on it~
i haf the stress of mum wanna buy car, becos i nid to paid. but the best thing i haf freedom and dun like others c down of me~~hiaz..... how STUPID am i~~ i wan to leearn how to say smart!!!!

hiaz....

今天还是一样心情超级有够烂！！！！
internship的那间打电话来告诉我，我只能到internship的时候才能去做！！
理由是我不够独立，他所谓的独立是我没有车！！！！！！这是什么世界！！！！！！
又不是我想要的，他的幼稚园在那么里面，都没巴士，我要怎么过去帮他代班？？？！！！！我真的很不爽！！！
是，我不独立！！！！因为我没车！！！！我明白了，我不会让你看死的！！
我一定要很努力！！！！今天超级不爽～～～

心情一天比一天down，心伤的越深～～我该加油啊！！