oh no~~

i really really stress on it~ n i found tat no one else is consider my training, becos they jus ask about yk. (i noe u will cit, if u come n take a look, pls dun mind wat i type here, jus let me release all my feeling, sry) i really wan to do my best ald, but sometimes i really stress until dun noe wat can i do~ i care about others feeling n wat they c about me.hiaz... i really jus can say hiaz.....

i dun noe which day i kena pengsan, becos i really feel bad in tis kinder, tat wat i din say out loud~ i noe i nid to face it, becos tis the way i choose, i will do my best in the day i still can control my emoction. i dun noe tat wat will i do if 1 day i out of control.... i will feel so sry about tat, but i think the day wont be come. i will kip everything in my heart after the training...

i wish can faster go off about tis training~

exam period

hiaz.... i really so sad of my exam, y i so unlucky n so blur as well!!!!
y everything i write the correct ans thn i wan to recorrect into wrong ans!!!!
My MARK!!!!! i waste more then 10 mark on my own mistake, i kena shout out loud ald!!!!!

YYYYY!!!! YYY i din haf the luck of exam ?? YY i oways like tat!!!!!!!! how sttupid am i~

the last exam i dun wan to touble check my ans ald!!! it kill my mark badly!!!!!!!

After exam i finish my diploma education and going to practicum in aug i hope can go smooth on it~ i wan to graduate!!!

N my FUTURE is how?? i still dun noe, everything going not smooth now.... y haf so many thing let me to consider, ARGH!!!!!!!

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So fast 1 year ald, last year i do a silly birthday e-card for him and tis year i will put effort in my exam jus wish him only~ hope he has the best 21 birthday!

is single but not available

today i having study group wif my fren and suddenly she ask me wat requires to ur bf, i dun noe how to answer her. and i ask her bc n she gif me a vry simple answer, she said she want her bf take gd k to her, n when he take gd k to her n means tat he oso will take good k to the family. actually in mind i haf many requires in before but now i really dun noe~

and the say y i din accept the guys who take gd care to me, n they think tat feeling can be train in the future. and they say me, u din accpent becos u are single but not available. i noe wat they mean, but is really like tat?? i really can say yk vry noe me much becos wat i din tell her but she oso can feel it~ yaya, maybe is like tat but i dun noe~

how stupid am i

jus realise that how poor of my communication!!
how stupid of my logical~ hiaz... i am so sad...
i really hope everything is going smooth, and will done well in my practicum!!!
i dun wish anything of tis kind of happen happen again~~
i will let her noe that how much i can effort on it~
i haf the stress of mum wanna buy car, becos i nid to paid. but the best thing i haf freedom and dun like others c down of me~~hiaz..... how STUPID am i~~ i wan to leearn how to say smart!!!!

hiaz....

今天还是一样心情超级有够烂！！！！
internship的那间打电话来告诉我，我只能到internship的时候才能去做！！
理由是我不够独立，他所谓的独立是我没有车！！！！！！这是什么世界！！！！！！
又不是我想要的，他的幼稚园在那么里面，都没巴士，我要怎么过去帮他代班？？？！！！！我真的很不爽！！！
是，我不独立！！！！因为我没车！！！！我明白了，我不会让你看死的！！
我一定要很努力！！！！今天超级不爽～～～

心情一天比一天down，心伤的越深～～我该加油啊！！

aiyaya~~

感觉我的心好像一天一天被割伤一刀，好痛哦～
问我为什么感觉到痛了？
我只能说其实是很小的事，不过我看得太在意了！！
搞到自己片体淋伤，我无法控制自己那么做……
为什么我总在不该执着的时候执着了？？？！！！
我在geng什么啊？？？
现在连我自己也不明白～

是我害怕了吗？
还是我需要那种依靠了呢？
有时还觉得很矛盾的，不过看着大家sweet sweet的！
还真的为他们高兴，然后就会想我的何时出现啊？？
Hiaz.....

七月，我希望是个美好的一个月份,该加油的人你们一定要加油！！
明天你们一定要很幸运！！！


我的心情最近都很不好……

My heart~

I dun wan to think too much of my life, but in fact i nid to think.
i dun wan to think my heart where is belong, but in fact i think much.
I hope everything can go smooth and have ppl to make choice for me, but in fact i have much of freedom to choose of my life. i din get any barrier when i nid to do anything but becos not haf any barriers make much scare on it, i dun haf any confidence.

I dun noe when the person come into my life again...
i get myself to believe that that is impossible but i still so degil tat giv myself a chance that deep into it, but i will get myself out in the possible time. i noe that the impossible hard to become possible so jus let me haf some time to leave it, n let myslef alone~~~