What the feel i having now??

Don't know when I start to feel pecek when talk with the person. I feel like the person don't understand what I'm saying. Is I need to say ET language to the person?? I feel like to rush to finish our talk and let it be. Hiaz... If can don't want see the person I choose not to see the person because it make my mood so bad!!! I HATE it!!!! Argh.....

I know the person treat me good before, I know I got hurt the person before,but...... I really can't control myself to feel moody when see the person. I feel sorry to the person but I don't know what can I do. I hate that other people always say the past of me, I HATE IT, but what can i do??? I regret, I totally regret that why accept the person that time,hiaz...... It make my life many gossip and somebody like discuss the thing as a "fun". Can i scold out?? NO!!

So sad to be like that. I don't know still can be friend with the person or not. I feel hard to be. Not I'm too heartless, is many thing make me feel like I need to do like this. Can I? Loss contact with you, when go out lateh no has you, the chatting topic no has you, no have your comment, don't chat with me in msn and send me the message. Can it be?? May I block you?? Hiaz......

I don't know the cause but I know I can't be the friend with you now.