aiyaya~~

感觉我的心好像一天一天被割伤一刀，好痛哦～
问我为什么感觉到痛了？
我只能说其实是很小的事，不过我看得太在意了！！
搞到自己片体淋伤，我无法控制自己那么做……
为什么我总在不该执着的时候执着了？？？！！！
我在geng什么啊？？？
现在连我自己也不明白～

是我害怕了吗？
还是我需要那种依靠了呢？
有时还觉得很矛盾的，不过看着大家sweet sweet的！
还真的为他们高兴，然后就会想我的何时出现啊？？
Hiaz.....

七月，我希望是个美好的一个月份,该加油的人你们一定要加油！！
明天你们一定要很幸运！！！


我的心情最近都很不好……

My heart~

I dun wan to think too much of my life, but in fact i nid to think.
i dun wan to think my heart where is belong, but in fact i think much.
I hope everything can go smooth and have ppl to make choice for me, but in fact i have much of freedom to choose of my life. i din get any barrier when i nid to do anything but becos not haf any barriers make much scare on it, i dun haf any confidence.

I dun noe when the person come into my life again...
i get myself to believe that that is impossible but i still so degil tat giv myself a chance that deep into it, but i will get myself out in the possible time. i noe that the impossible hard to become possible so jus let me haf some time to leave it, n let myslef alone~~~

mostly breakdown

i hate wat am i now!!!
Y i scare all the thing happen on me, y i need to keep calling myself to be composedly.
But wat am i do now? scare tis scare thr, lazy here lazy thr!!!!
i wanna to be brave, y i cant~~
y everything i nid to help by others, y i feel so helpless~~~
i scare tomolo interview, i really scare actually i dun wish to go thr for internship, but should i do??i really really hate wat am i now~~

tell ppl tat i am 21, i think oso no ppl will belive. meet any problem jus noe how to cry to express wat i am~~ how should i do??? i kena pengsan 1 day if i keep like tat!!!!!!!

i hate it!!!!!!!!!!din settle the thing 1 day i think i jus noe how to cry on it~~~hiaz..............................................................................i really really is a useless person~~~

wat u think about me?

my college fren dun noe me much~~
when i wan to release my feeling tat got a feel tat i am angry wif them~
it is becos i seldom say out my feeling?? or my talk is too serious with them??


i am no idea....
N dun noe y tis few days i really vry pecek!!!!
i wan to calm down but not so easy~~
i scare everything i facing now!!!!
i hate wat i am facing now!!!!!!

but for conclusion, i nid to solve it, becos tis is my own business~~
i nid to be more powerful to meet all the thing!~~

Haf a Great start of my 21st years old life

The time is so fast, 517 was passed almost half month~
i am so glad tat i was having a nice nice birthday wif my fren n family~
And i am satisfy my life now~

BUT.....
I am worried about my life~~
How do i make the decision of my next journey???
Degree or Cert. ???
Most of frens ask me to take the degree, but i am not haf the confidence to finish my degree, is too hard for me, or just my mind having problem?? Wat i scare for??? hiaz....

WHAT SHOULD I DO??????

i wan to have a vry vry vry good life after tis diploma course~~i wan it!!!!!

After wish

After the new life wish, the second day. i cried...
I really couldn't controlled my tears.
i cry badly, like release all my unhappiness for those days...
i get stress ,badly stress until i didn't know what should i do, then i cried.
Really like idiot, why i just know how to use cry to release everything????!!!

Luckily i am a easy going person. The next day i feel ok on it.
And i think back, why i cry on it? i get an answer is really bad mood gua....
I wish my new life keep going on. i will try my best to let myself happy!!

Exam is coming, i really stress on it. This is really very difficult!!
How should i do?? just do best!!
after exam i hope i can a big rest and chick chat with my dearest sis and frens!!!
I hope i have a memorable 21st birthday.

A new start

After the broga hill, i have a new start of life because of the sun rise.
When reach home, i told myself that i need to have a good start, from NOW!!

i don't want to like a idiot to think all of the nonsense, i don't want to make myself so stress of study, i don't want to make myself so sad!! i don't want!!!
i want to be a smarter in life make my life more colourful, i wan to study happily because the course is i like, i want to be stronger person when meet problem!!! i want !!!

i want to believe that fated is appear in my life, and i just need to wait!!
i want to believe that someone while appear when i sad, i happy or i need some suprise in my life!!
i want to believe that i can change my life from NOW!!!!!!!

SUNRISE make my life get a new START!!!
Cheer!!!!!