My heart~

I dun wan to think too much of my life, but in fact i nid to think.
i dun wan to think my heart where is belong, but in fact i think much.
I hope everything can go smooth and have ppl to make choice for me, but in fact i have much of freedom to choose of my life. i din get any barrier when i nid to do anything but becos not haf any barriers make much scare on it, i dun haf any confidence.

I dun noe when the person come into my life again...
i get myself to believe that that is impossible but i still so degil tat giv myself a chance that deep into it, but i will get myself out in the possible time. i noe that the impossible hard to become possible so jus let me haf some time to leave it, n let myslef alone~~~

mostly breakdown

i hate wat am i now!!!
Y i scare all the thing happen on me, y i need to keep calling myself to be composedly.
But wat am i do now? scare tis scare thr, lazy here lazy thr!!!!
i wanna to be brave, y i cant~~
y everything i nid to help by others, y i feel so helpless~~~
i scare tomolo interview, i really scare actually i dun wish to go thr for internship, but should i do??i really really hate wat am i now~~

tell ppl tat i am 21, i think oso no ppl will belive. meet any problem jus noe how to cry to express wat i am~~ how should i do??? i kena pengsan 1 day if i keep like tat!!!!!!!

i hate it!!!!!!!!!!din settle the thing 1 day i think i jus noe how to cry on it~~~hiaz..............................................................................i really really is a useless person~~~

wat u think about me?

my college fren dun noe me much~~
when i wan to release my feeling tat got a feel tat i am angry wif them~
it is becos i seldom say out my feeling?? or my talk is too serious with them??


i am no idea....
N dun noe y tis few days i really vry pecek!!!!
i wan to calm down but not so easy~~
i scare everything i facing now!!!!
i hate wat i am facing now!!!!!!

but for conclusion, i nid to solve it, becos tis is my own business~~
i nid to be more powerful to meet all the thing!~~

Haf a Great start of my 21st years old life

The time is so fast, 517 was passed almost half month~
i am so glad tat i was having a nice nice birthday wif my fren n family~
And i am satisfy my life now~

BUT.....
I am worried about my life~~
How do i make the decision of my next journey???
Degree or Cert. ???
Most of frens ask me to take the degree, but i am not haf the confidence to finish my degree, is too hard for me, or just my mind having problem?? Wat i scare for??? hiaz....

WHAT SHOULD I DO??????

i wan to have a vry vry vry good life after tis diploma course~~i wan it!!!!!

After wish

After the new life wish, the second day. i cried...
I really couldn't controlled my tears.
i cry badly, like release all my unhappiness for those days...
i get stress ,badly stress until i didn't know what should i do, then i cried.
Really like idiot, why i just know how to use cry to release everything????!!!

Luckily i am a easy going person. The next day i feel ok on it.
And i think back, why i cry on it? i get an answer is really bad mood gua....
I wish my new life keep going on. i will try my best to let myself happy!!

Exam is coming, i really stress on it. This is really very difficult!!
How should i do?? just do best!!
after exam i hope i can a big rest and chick chat with my dearest sis and frens!!!
I hope i have a memorable 21st birthday.

A new start

After the broga hill, i have a new start of life because of the sun rise.
When reach home, i told myself that i need to have a good start, from NOW!!

i don't want to like a idiot to think all of the nonsense, i don't want to make myself so stress of study, i don't want to make myself so sad!! i don't want!!!
i want to be a smarter in life make my life more colourful, i wan to study happily because the course is i like, i want to be stronger person when meet problem!!! i want !!!

i want to believe that fated is appear in my life, and i just need to wait!!
i want to believe that someone while appear when i sad, i happy or i need some suprise in my life!!
i want to believe that i can change my life from NOW!!!!!!!

SUNRISE make my life get a new START!!!
Cheer!!!!!

Broga Hill一趟

今天去了broga hill，风景漂亮，可惜我没走完。
一半自己没力，一半yk不想上了。
所以我们就在第一峰等他们咯～
看到了好美好美的日出！！



还记得在路上的时候，neknek就和我说下次带男朋友一起来。
我的回答是等咯，哈哈！！结果他就说哪里可以输给你的侄儿侄女？
我完全想晕倒，虽然他说的没错啦！
不过上到了山，我心想要看日出下次也不会来这里了，哈哈！！好累哦！
爬到我气都快喘不过了。

老实说，还是第一次流那么多的汗！！
在一路上上山，我还几度感觉腿软。
结果还真不一小心差点往后倒，还好有所谓的“壮哥哥”在我后面推我一把，不然我一定跌。
一路上他一直说我们那么没力。可是他真的完全没有喘，还真夸张。
其实他也满照顾我们，拖neknek之托吧！
我们喘到休息他就在我们旁边站着怕有人不知道有人在那里。
然后他的汗就这样一滴一滴的滴在我手上……夸张！！



到第一峰就已经没什么力了，我们就没跟上去了。
就自己high咯，在那里拍照，等日出。
超多人的了，居然还给我遇到婉艺……
完全炸到！！有缘啊～

下山的时候那所谓的“壮哥哥”也一直跟在我们后面陪我们，哈哈!!
体力好的人就是要付出这种代价了！！

下了山，我们很夸张的直接下到seremban吃早餐才回家。
不过真的很开心！！
一路上neknek一直在介绍另一辆车的朋友。
个性啊，couple怎么在一起啊， 家事啊，驾驶技术啊，身材，什么都说了。
可是她就忘了和我介绍就坐在他身边的女朋友，哈哈！！

不过，他朋友都很不错啦，都会互相照顾！！
在他邀我的时候他就说要介绍两个帅哥给我认识。
是有点失望，不过如果他换说两个壮男就还好～
因为一个我见识到了，另一个他们说是不露相～哈哈！！
多认识人也不错好！！

壮哥哥叫做kai fei
真人不露相，有钱又壮的另一的叫做joun
三对couple：一对男的叫jimmy女的不知道名
一对女的叫kathy男的叫ah hong。这个男的超像一个华中生的，不过他不是bp人
一对就是堂哥neknek和女朋友Sandy咯！！
还有两个男的，见面每一分钟，他们上山超快的，所以不知道他们的名～
就是我和yk啦！12人行就是我broga hill的旅程啦！

之前还以为会有什么“艳遇”，结果一场空！哈哈！！