is single but not available

today i having study group wif my fren and suddenly she ask me wat requires to ur bf, i dun noe how to answer her. and i ask her bc n she gif me a vry simple answer, she said she want her bf take gd k to her, n when he take gd k to her n means tat he oso will take good k to the family. actually in mind i haf many requires in before but now i really dun noe~

and the say y i din accept the guys who take gd care to me, n they think tat feeling can be train in the future. and they say me, u din accpent becos u are single but not available. i noe wat they mean, but is really like tat?? i really can say yk vry noe me much becos wat i din tell her but she oso can feel it~ yaya, maybe is like tat but i dun noe~

how stupid am i

jus realise that how poor of my communication!!
how stupid of my logical~ hiaz... i am so sad...
i really hope everything is going smooth, and will done well in my practicum!!!
i dun wish anything of tis kind of happen happen again~~
i will let her noe that how much i can effort on it~
i haf the stress of mum wanna buy car, becos i nid to paid. but the best thing i haf freedom and dun like others c down of me~~hiaz..... how STUPID am i~~ i wan to leearn how to say smart!!!!

hiaz....

今天还是一样心情超级有够烂！！！！
internship的那间打电话来告诉我，我只能到internship的时候才能去做！！
理由是我不够独立，他所谓的独立是我没有车！！！！！！这是什么世界！！！！！！
又不是我想要的，他的幼稚园在那么里面，都没巴士，我要怎么过去帮他代班？？？！！！！我真的很不爽！！！
是，我不独立！！！！因为我没车！！！！我明白了，我不会让你看死的！！
我一定要很努力！！！！今天超级不爽～～～

心情一天比一天down，心伤的越深～～我该加油啊！！